Sometimes you need to destroy a whole lot of things at once,or else you can’t advance in life. Be it destroying useless parts of yourself or destroying others that get in your way,either way sometimes you need to hurt somebody harder than you’re hurting.Sadly though,this will keep you stuck in the same old pattern of hatred which can be hell overtime.
Not much can endure that hellish side of life for long. Not even superman,so why destroy yourself in the first place? I say its best to accept all of you fully,once you can do that you can destroy the outside forces that stand in your way or you can accept them too. In the end the choice is up to us to make. We always have a choice,every second of every day,we have all these choices. Of course the choices we’ve been sticking with for so long become habits. Which is very convenient for us because having to make a choice for every little thing will drive you crazy, that’s why it becomes automatic behavior until you begin living consciously of course. If cutting up and mutilating corpses has been your hobby for so long then it becomes automatic,you will run down the street,see some people,knock them out and toss them into your over sized grocery cart(white van). Anyway,habits can be good or bad,I know i have a few bad habits to break, its kind of pathetic of me that I’ve wasted this much time in life….all because i didn’t want to let go. Which is most likely a habit. Similar to the van rapist slaughterer. It all comes down to habits and INTENT.
This is where destruction comes in…you need to destroy whatever the hell is holding you back. Be ruthless,be merciless be decisive. Don;t second guess things, just go and do it. Trust me you will save yourself a lot of time and energy which would otherwise be directed to self loathing.
Just let go of all fear,yes its a choice…Its just unconscious most of the time though not always. Don’t destroy yourself completely, just enough to push yourself into a better direction, but I guess like all things, it can backfire…especially without decisive action.
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