When nothing matters and nothing seems like its going to be fun or worth it and you just want to stay in your room/house/basement all day and just kill time and try to find pleasure you once had in being alone. Well,nothing good lasts forever. This is a fact,what was enjoyable one day will feel like shit the next day.There are no absolutes yet we decide not to do anything anyway. There may be a sense of familiarity and even pleasure in laying in bed and hoping to fall asleep. This is sloth. It’s common in today’s society. It could be dubbed as a sign of weakness or it could simply be part of an underlying issue that hasn’t been resolved.
I notice the biggest obstacle we have to becoming the best we can be is ourselves. We come up with all kinds of retarded excuses to keep us from trying anything somewhat meaningful and uplifting. I guess we are all a bit masochistic in some way. Indecision can be part of masochism, or simply you just don’t know what the hell to even be doing in the first place…So we just sit and spiral…Hating…Hating others,hating ourselves and hating the world. Apathy,hopelessness and self sabotage may be the side effects of solitude. Solitude amplifies anger,which can become an ally or a great adversary. If only we had all the answers,we could read all the books we want,we could get ourselves horny as hell from porn but in the end its up to us to take some sort of action to get us to where we need to be,truly need to be for our own well being. I guess we need to learn to ignore the bullshit we hear and only focus on finding out who we are. I think that’s a worthy goal. It could inspire productive action if put to the test. I guess sometimes we may crave our alone time and that’s natural. Some people prefer solitude but nobody can withstand it forever. Solitude is the birthplace of insanity and irrational thinking but it can also be the birthplace of becoming the greatest human being possible. It could go both ways,like everything else in life. I guess we must ask ourselves ‘Why am I spending so much time in one place?’ and ‘What is keeping me here?’ It could be lethargy,it could be boredom, it could also be loneliness….Life can be a burden sometimes,you just want it to end. Existential philosophers say ‘hell is with other people’ but also some people say ‘solitude is truly hell’. I guess it goes both ways then. We can’t be by ourselves and we can’t be with other people. What a pain in the ass huh? In solitude it can sometimes be very blissful but overtime it becomes unbearable. I guess the same can go for being around other people. I think once we find the places and people that make us feel most at ease and at home that’s when we will probably begin to fall in love with life. Damn it all. It’s very easy to cling to what’s familiar. I guess taking a risk every now and then could be necessary,especially if you are young and need to experience some sort of thrill and joy. It can drive you but there will ALWAYS be those thoughts that keep you bound and it can be extremely infuriating. Maybe we can also learn to use that anger to propel us even further. I guess all it takes is some intelligent creativity. I notice creativity can go both ways. There can be useful,productive GENIUS creativity and then there is also the idiotic,self destructive fear based creativity. Which can turn you insane and fill you with anger and rage….
I think a good practice would be hedonism. Look it up. To eliminate the demons in our heads we must first identify them and from there defy what they say. It will be tough but extremely satisfying to do pleasurable yet painful things to live the life you need to live. And what you need is a good life,something that makes you feel stronger and happier and satisfied than ever. It all starts with a thought,choose a good thought and follow it up with action. Anyone who tries to stand in your way destroy them. All that matters is for you to feel good,nothing else….If helping others makes you feel good then go for it. Eliminate unproductive pain from your life. ELIMINATE ALL FEAR IN YOUR LIFE,including anger. Or find a way to make it propel you forward in a positive direction. Life can be good,far beyond what our minds are capable of imagining,if we just took proper action and not meaningless action. Sometimes it takes a small risk to truly change your life. As meaningless as it all sounds, it can be fun and meaningless rather than miserable and meaningless.Life is inherently meaningless but it doesn’t have to be worthless.
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